Curtains open achknowledging both players, I love you baby you're always in my prayers but why the hell is a pricking animal in me that sucking parasite, point the finger on me GO ON then fucking get outta my sight. Oh my, I should've known I shouldn't have blown it all off , now Look at me, take A Good look at me, I'm completely thrown out, out of my throne, my own golden throne that I've made for my own recognition, oh look how selfish am I to hang on sharp thorns those chewed bones. Why don't you like me? Why!? How could you do this to me you fucking bitch how could you? *slap**sob**scream* -- I love you baby oh my God I love you! FUck him Fuck me.
Aren't you tired baby we're bitching about the same old thing ever since grandma was around and now she's dead she's gone forever and we're still bitching about the same asshole I fucked, There goes the rich man with big thinkings and those poor ones without bling blings. Still I'm here worrying about my baby worried if she gets awaken , oh shit she'll hear me screammmm, Cut off those madness man! Cut it off damn it! You'll wake her up and you don't want her to hear you damn it! ARrrrrgghghhhhhhh... fuck you FUCK YOU! * Running *
----- Roof top ------- Well now here I am nobody will hear me here I'm safe with no fear you hate me girl so stay away and never should you appear, leave me alone for hell's sake, Opps yeah Don't forget to bring along your mask you've faked, you motherfucker stop crying ! I'm never gonna hear you , you selfish bitch. Why don't you just pull the trigger when you had a chance, why did you blow it , you stupid fool you should've just shot me , NO LAST GLANCE!
i like the way you handle things..i like it when you talked...and when you tell me things...i like it that you open up to me, you teach me things, you guided me through...you think for others soo much that sometimes you just neglect yourself...i like the way you played the guitar and drums, and then way you concentrate on making yourself the best in everything...you make me impressed..you made me fell for you...i like it that you dont leave things behind of you..i like the way you are soo curious.....i like the way you think..the way you ask questions..i like your lips, i like your smile, i like your eyes and your nose, your face, your body, your style, i like you the way you are, special and unique in every single way...i like the way you share things with people, you're not selfish to share knowledge that you know, teaching things that you are good in...i like the way that you dont give up easily...i like the way you love your loved ones, the way you care for them...the way you hold me tightly in your arms, the way you kiss me, the way you embrass me, the way you just make me feel that i'm yours.i like the way you're cute, handsome, stylish...the way things come, the way you do things so naturally...i like the way you put effort in everything that you do...i like it that you love many things...you are great in every aspect, you are very intelligent. you have all of the multiple intelligences, being intelligent in each and every one of them. i like the way you are dirty, the way you are untidy, you're giving me chance to take care of you, tidying your room, hanging your clothes, asking you to bath, flush the toilet, and wash your hands. i like the way you just give me chances after chances to improve myself, i know i have disappointed you so much, but you just gave me chances after chances....i like the way you are sure of what you want. i like the way that you like to dress up, you like to buy clothes, shopping, you like things that you like, you're sure. i like it that you're humble, i like it that you take care of the feelings of the poor/unaffordable, you don't criticize them..i like it that you don't mind about dirty places, or not that high class places....i like the way you're like a book of songs. you know almost every single song that were released, i like the way you move to those songs, the way you sing along to them, the way you dance to them, rock to them...the way you learn to sing opera by practicing. i like the way you pull me along to like music, knowing me who dont even know any songs...but you shared with me, you took the time to explain to me one by one, altho sometimes it takes a long long time just for me to get it....i like the way you go for something that you really like...like clothes, cds, games, food..the way you make yourself satisfied, to be contented. i like the way you are a big spender, gives me a chance to be of use, to control using money a little, saving up a little, i like it that you bring me up to feel confident, i like the way you love me, altho i know that you don't like me to hold you..i like the way you talk..always having meanings..always know how to explain things that are hard, i like the way you guide me to talk..i like the way you learn things up...the way you observe people..i like the way you help people... i like the way you play basketball, the way you aim, shoot, play, bounce, volleyball, the way you dig, spike, set, you just learnt and you're good man... badminton...the way you smash...wow....not forgetting pool....i like the way you play....wow..the way you think..the way you practice...never giving up...keep practicing and practicing until you're good.. the way you move..the way you so 'slumber'....i like your muscles..the way you build it. the way you take the initiatif to build....i like your chest...eemm eemm...yummy.... i like the way you made me feel soo protected by you, safe in your arms.. i like it when you carry me when i'm sooo heavy, but you just carried and made me feel soo nice....don't know how to tahan the weight.
What the hell is wrong with you Julius? What the fucking hell is wrong with you! You sick bastard, you heartless faggot, can't you see the love? Can't you? How could you leave her crying alone in the cold in the wilderness all alone you damn it you ! You should burn in hell for all your stupid mistakes , what's wrong with you man? how much does it takes? Isn't it enough to see your wife bleeding while you go on with your ' sight-seeing'. -tobecontinued-
christmasChristmas is coming guys. Do you have any plans together? Ok guys first of all make the 27th free because B will be expecting us to her house for dinner but she asked us to come earlier so that we can hang out. And maybe because she wants me to cook again. 
Ah I'm excited, can't wait for Christmas to come! Can't wait to give everyone the presents that I've bought .. yay! Most of all I bought all silly things for my family and friends. Don't know whether they'll like it but start praying to Santa Justin and you'll like what I give! Ho Ho Ho...
I hope everyone of you who reads this won't forget to give me a Christmas present hehe 
differenceI'm thinking, and thinking...
Different I see in you, in my queen,
This moment you're white,
Turned black in a blink.
Disappointment flows rapidly,
Brings out a devil inside me,
Hides the angel cautiously,
Kills my heart abruptly.
Awaiting the abstract future,
Adapting the fluctuation,
Expecting ample dire disaster,
Exceeding the terminus of comprehension.
Questioning the numbers of tyranny,
Seeking similarities of difference,
Admiring the wretched blissfully,
Abandon my tears in your absence.
Justin
Uhh... what a day today!
Basicaly, it started off well, I woke up around 9 am today because Ellie was coming over. Stayed until 3 pm because she has her test at 1530. Chilling out as usual, chatting and kinkying around
Time ran quickly. As soon as we realized, it was alredy 1520! And that means, rush hour!
Rushed all the way to her college, I was driving at the speed of 140km/h at a two laned road, and 160km/h at the highway. Reached a bit late, but she still has time to do her test. Fourty five minutes before we left, Mom called and asked to order McDonalds. So I called and ordered some food for mom, ellie, and myself. Should have just drove out to buy, could have save some time. Ah well...
Ellie ate on the way to her college. After I dropped her off at college, I 've already planned to go to Midvalley Mall to play pool since I have one hour while waiting for Ellie. Midvalley is just a fifteen minutes drive from Ellie's college. There're several ways to get there, few shortcuts. So confidently, I try to remember the roads and oh my, I got lost! But still could breathe out of relief because somehow I did a few turnings and manage to get back on track. But something went really wrong, so wrong, and this mistake caused this whole crappy day. I took a wrong right turn, but I didn't know if I could take the left one either, so I was just trying my luck and I was thinking maybe I could still find my way there because it's actually not that difficult to get there. As I said, fifteen minutes drive.
After that big wrong right turn, I still didn't realize where would it lead me until I saw the only signboard which would lead me to Kuala Lumpur( KL ). So I just take that road thinking that I could still find my way to Midvalley because Midvalley is quite near to KL . Driving the car while my mind is blank lead me to the road of ' hell ' . As soon as my eyes were opened, I saw a signboard which tells me that I'm in Cheras which is further from my destination. I just continue driving and soon enough I found out that I'm in the deep forest of KL, not knowing where I am exactly by the way. I just drove wherever the car would take me. Then I realized I went into Puchong, then Putrajaya, Desa Petaling,then University Pertanian Malaysia which is quite near to Seremban, Negeri Sembilan. Then saw MARDI, got lost at Lebuhraya Sungai Besi and KL-Seremban Highway. I was running out of time because I have to give back the car to Ellie's eldest sister. She had an interview to attend and the interview was at 1830. I didn't know whether I could make it or not, but the day proved me that I didn't. The interviewer actually called and asked if she would want him to go to her, but somehow things went wrong so she had to go to the interviewer. I spent three hours on the highway while Ellie sits one hour for her test. Both were sitting for TESTS! Worst of all is that my handphone battery went dead! Out of all days man... which seldom happens
Then her sister got to posponned the interview to 1930. Ellie was quite relief but I wasn't. I just knew that I couldn't make it on time because I was going further and further. Finally I decided to go back to Klang, which area I'm most familiar with. I had to use to Federal Highway. On my way to the highway, charming big midvalley was just in front of my eyes! Goodness crapious! It was too late anyway, forget about midvalley, I have to rush back to Ellie's college and shits on the streets today, heavy traffic jam! All the way in Federal Highway. Took half an hour in the jam. Thought of using the Subang Airport road that links to Kesas Highway but I missed it. So I had to go further in to Shah Alam and connect to Kesas Highway. THank God that Kesas wasn't jam at all. From there I sped again. Finally and finally, I reached at 1930, and that spelled L A T E ! Ellie took the car and gave it to her sister but her sister was already furious. Flamable words was written by the movements of her mouth. She was mad. Obviously, who wouldn't? I would too, making me wait for two hours, and I have an interview to attend. Oh goodness me...
After settling with her sister, Ellie and I was left alone at her college. I didn't want to follow her sister because I couldn't bare to see the fire on her face. So then, we had to walk. Argh, I hate walking long distance. We had to walk about twenty minutes to the nearest train station from her college. It took about twenty minutes but both of us were already sweating like a pig when we reached. Hungry the whole day since we didn't had much food too. Just a burger each. We sat at the train station for ten minutes first before we bought a ticket to go to another train station. Right beside us was a stall selling corns. Just at the moment when I asked Ellie to get me a cup of corn, the lights of the stall were shut off, so it's closed! What a luck!
Fine, we took the train to KL Central because we had to take another train back to Klang. When we reached KL Central, the train that's moving to Klang will be reaching in a minute! We ran from one side to the other side of the platform. We were just right on time when the train reached. If we just walked, I don't think we can make it, and we had to rush for time because mom's are cracking our heads with noise~
This time the journey back seems quite long although we were talking all the way through. We bought two train tickets to Midvalley from KL Central which will only costs two ringgit for two where we actually have to buy two tickets to Telok Gadong( the station where we have to get down). Cost RM3.70 each. So it's money saving ticket huh? Next exiciting moment, when we were just about to reach Telok Gadong station, two train inspectors appeared all of a sudden when I look in front. Damn, they were checking the tickets whether the tickets are bought at the right destination, date, and time. Right at the moment the train reached Telok Gadong Station, the two inspectors were asking for our tickets.. Right at the moment! Smarty me and Ellie acted well enough and pretended that the tickets were missing. SO the inspectors came down with us and charged us RM3.70 X 2 because of silly me who said that we were from KL Central. If only I said somewhere nearer then we might just have to pay lesser. Stupid me.
That was the end for me. I called my mom and she took about ten minutes to come and fetch Ellie and I back to my house to bath first then I sent Ellie back home. Then I supposed it was Ellie's turn to deal with both her sisters and parents at home. Yep, as I guessed. Things didn't go so well with her eldest sister, but it was ok with the others. Oh well, what a crappy today! Everything just went so wrong and from wrong to wrong...
Never want this day to repeat again, and don't want anything worst than this either. Amen! Ahah..
Good... er.... morning ? Well it's 7 pm here and I just woke up. Uhh.. felt like I lost half of my day. The next thing I know everyone is going to sleep and I'm still gonna be wide awake like batman. Anyway, I already have some things to do on mind, either I'll read, play Rome( new game, baby gave me as a bday gift ), or I'll go out and meet my best pal today, Boobie Louis, or I'll just sit and play guitar until I'm tired.
Hmm.. I'm feeling kinda weird. Maybe because I just woke up and I feel like I lost my day! The feeling is like, I'm not alive on earth, like I'm not one of the humans, like I'm just one of the spirits around but spirits that has a biological body, like a normal human, but I'm a spirit! Don't freak out because no matter what I say, I'm still human, yes.
Aha woo... today my sweetie Ellie fix the sheets on the bed for me and the bedsheet is cool! Skater concept. Don't want to sleep on it but, argh well.. Today we cleaned up my room and rearranged stuffs and cds especially. LOADS of cds! She vacuumed the floor too 
Now it's clean. Can't wait for my room to get dirty again so that she can come and clean it for me! Haha.. psstt.. just joking!
Greetings to all human and non-human that's watching.
I am who I am -- Justin G.L.M.
Just turned 18 on November 10.
Currently being the second boss at home other than my mom. Living with two cute brothers, King and Ken. Oh, just realized something, the worst person to deal with on earth is me because I can't find ways to deal with myself!
